Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Happy New Year 2014

Im glad i saved my evening..and cross over to 2014 in a different mood. There are just things that need to be put in place...cannot means cannot...there is no discussion over it.

Anyway, life will still carry on and i will try to continue my beliefs in the new year! hopefully 2014 will be a good year for all!

Saturday, December 28, 2013

A walk out of the cage

Sometimes when you keep facing someone or doing things too often as per usual, you tend to lose your focus on things and doubted yourself on your feelings too.

So much confusion that you do not know which is real or bluff..and times like this, you really need to walk out of your cage to refresh your mind...and sometimes it does help!

Understand your position, refresh your thoughts and adjust your direction before continuing the journey of life!

Saturday, December 21, 2013

A Quiet Night

Its midnight now and im just back from a pre x'mas party with my photography buddies.
On this quiet night, i just felt blessed.

Blessed not only because that im surrounded  with friends but because that i'm able and determine to enjoy every single moment towards the end of the year.

I had a great start this year, my first Europe trip..an advancement in my career, met lots of friends and experience love...everything seems to be so smooth that even i doubted that it was just too good to be true!
Well people often say that a head start doesn't mean anything unless you can finish the run and so, God decided to show me what was the extreme opposite of not being able to complete the run...
The courtship went haywired, my team had a re org and there was responsibility change, i was out of my comfort zone, my holidays plan was ruined, i cancelled my trip...
Life was not so good and if you ask me, i think its a miracle that i managed to walk out of these negativity.

I could in fact behave like what usual people do, cry over spilled milk, get angry at the unfairness of life, hide in the dark little corner and seek everyone's sympathy.
I had every single reason to do that..i can choose to feel like a victim.

Well, but i chose not to..im afterall a rational person and i know that i cant live in such a manner. I hate the choking feeling and decided to change an approach in seeing things.

Compared to some, It wasn't too difficult for me as i am born naturally an optimist ...while friends also played a comfort and support role in difficult times, i felt that it still boils down to individual to handle the situation. For me, i chose to think from another angle, another perspective...i chose to think that these were positive, these were an experience.
I love this quote alot,
"If you have to continue to live in difficult times, why not choose to be more positive than negative?"

I came to understand that nothing would change given that i had no control in decisions that weren't made by me. Crying, suffering over these are just too pathetic. I realised that there is balance in this world and i too had control of things, i can make decisions too.
Just like voting in an election, i can't decide who can be a candidate to run for the election, but i can choose who to vote for. Being in a state of denial and sadness is as good as giving up the option to vote.(nothing will change).

So i decided to exercise my voting rights, i decided to take control of things that i can control and change.
The first thing was to change my mindset and accept whatever happened.
I need to think that things happened for a reason and even if things doesn't move in the way you expect, it isn't all bad. Did you ever feel so miserable to lose a great deal in a sale but to only realised that its a blessing in disguise when the person who bought it discover some flaws in the product?
So losing it, doesn't mean that its bad..its really how you think.

The second thing is to understand that i too had controls over things. I can't change what has happened, i cant control what others think and behave but i can choose how to continue to move in the direction that my life should. To me, every life experience counts and to be able to learn from it, is better than to deny what has happened. I can choose to think that I'm silly, i can choose to be angry, i can choose to feel sad...
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I can choose to be happy that i got out of something that could possibly be even worse in the future, I can choose to be wiser and improve my life thru each experience learnings, I can choose to treasure and love myself more thru these ordeals, I can even think that i am blessed that only thru such experience, did i met some of the greatest friends and how great is family's love and support that i can probably never experience if i didn't went thru these.
It is these people that i should treasure and focus more on...

So choosing how to control your thinking, how to treat yourself is also a part of the decisions that would affect your life. Once you acknowledge that you have this control in life, things get better! You will realised that you gained more than losing more.

The third thing was to never lose faith and never lose yourself.
I heard preacher Joseph john mentioned about the "wait" in the church, everyone is waiting for something in life and sometimes it just take forever to come but if it will....
While waiting, some might lose its faith, some might even lose the hope, and some might even lose themselves by discarding their beliefs. I have a friend who was once so decent, so upright but right after a failure converted to drinking, etc and these caused him a lot more than what he has lost initially.
He was too enraged to realised that a small failure isn't worth these much. He lost himself and didn't get anything out of it.
I feel that you can lose almost anything in life, but never your self worth and self esteem. No one can look down on you unless you decided to first. With these, comes confident...and you know that its a natural charm when you have them :)

The last thing that i learned was to never expect but to accept.
Serenity comes when you trade expectations for acceptance. It's okay to admit that you are disappointed and angry. You just need to accept it in order to start healing..
When i was young, i have a lot of expectations of others and myself, I always expect people around us to give us things on special occasions, especially people that matters to you. And so, I spend days waiting and hoping but when it never came, you get totally upset about it.
With greater expectations, comes greater disappointment...
I decided to change thiswhen i started working...i realised that instead of waiting, i can choose to buy the things i love by earning for it. I still own the same things that i like except without the possibility of disappointment.
When you have gone thru these, you realised that sometimes the feeling to give is better than to accept.
I guess we all experienced before let downs where people forget about appointments and you deliberately sit at home and wait for the time to come before you confront the person and get all angry and upset over it. You could have possibly just go out and do more meaningful things or schedule other appointments....

I realised that as time passed, we are no longer young, and we can no longer live our life the same way that we used to be. We need to grow up in our mentality, we need to be more mature in our thinking and we cannot afford to make wasted decisions in our life. When its time to move away from situations, we need to take that  decision and act on it.

Always believe that life gets better even when in the darkest moment in life and trust me, there are a lot of people out there that is suffering and living in a much worse condition that you can imagine...and they have never give up their life for it and constantly trying to improve.
In comparison, we are just so pathetic if we are comfortably wasting our time each day on tiny things that troubled us. It makes me start thinking if we are living just too fortunate to frown over things like this...especially if its not going to change anything but just to remain sad.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Giving to Others is also giving to ourselves

I came across an article today on tinybuddha where the writer share about her thoughts on "Giving to others, is also giving to ourselves".
It inspired me a lot, and my intepretation of giving is intangilble. It can be in a form of lending support or showing concern...be nice to someone without expecting anything...

I share my experience here too. Recently, i was asked to help take pics for a couple...complete stranger to me, where the husband is diagnosed with some critical illness...and the wife would very much keep some memories while he is still healthy...and so i immediately agreed to do it.
Of course as a human, i have to admit that i had my own grumbles too...
But when i received a msg from the wife today that she appreciates the pictures and it meant alot to her...i felt that its worth every single effort that i spend. Something as simple as taking pictures...can be as meaningful as well...and i feel happy about it!

Have you started giving? I guess this Xmas is a good opportunity to start learning to give!

Brunch day out

Its been so long since i last posted my favourite brunch sessions...and finally after so long, i had the chance to visit Strangers' reunion.

While i thought monday would be quieter, i was totally wrong. At 10am, its almost 80% full.
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I love paintings and this place is filled with these paintings for sale
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The coffee is nice...
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So happen Van is on leave that day, and we arranged to visit the place together. Thats the poached egg on bread...its a little expensive for that.
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Look at my eggs with english muffin, seriously i think it taste good...but its quite expensive i feel considering only eggs and muffin.
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Its a good place to hang out, the ambiance is cosy.
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Well to end off..the waffle ice cream is nice! Can see the victory sign here..we both agree that should we return to this place, we will definitely re order this!
Strangers reunion

Monday, December 16, 2013

Updates

Life has been full of excitement and anticipation. Im glad that with the year ending, i started to understand and appreciate things better.

I love this quote especially, "when you stop trying to change others and work on changing yourself, your world changes for the better".


Monday, November 25, 2013

Grateful! Really!

So this year, its going to be my 32th birthday. Hmm the year was quite eventful for me actually..and i dont think it was all bad. It made me understand things that i probably will never think of if these events didnt really take place.

If you ask me, it was quite a fruitful experience. Before moving on to my next adventurous year ahead, i decided to show some gratitude to my friends and colleagues by preparing some macarons for them.
I'm really grateful that at this age, there are still friends who remembers my birthday, who plan in advance for me, who took the effort to even ask me, how i wish to celebrate it. I really felt blessed this year.

Hopefully they will like this little treats!
Macarons

Macarons

Macarons

For those who arent in my office, dont worry, the treat last forever! Cheers!

Sunday, November 10, 2013

A Getaway is what i need

2013 is a year of fantasy for me. So much so that now when i think back again, everything seems so surreal...
I met some of the greatest bunch of friends, not just for hanging out with but i can rely on if i need their support
I fell in love and walked myself out of the mess...
My family!
My first trip to Europe...
My hard to get promotion!
My very first birthday spent OT ing...(predicted)
My first airfare cancellation...

And with such an eventful year, im not really happy the way things are going to end in 2013. Its definitely not the way i want it.

I guess i really need a short break, a short getaway to re charge myself..there are just so much things that i do not like the way it is....work especially...
And if can, i prefer a quiet spending of birthday, xmas, and new year this year!
Sometimes being alone is rewarding...enjoying a moment of "Me" time can be a luxury...

I am planning my Japan Spring trip...i will definitely go for the trip....be it alone or with a travel partner....I need something to look forward to..

Now i cant wait for April to come soon!


Saturday, October 12, 2013

Trust and honour vs living your life

So i finally believed that sometimes in life, decision should be made based on oneself..based on what is best for you.

Guess people make plans for themselves either...and i chose to stay with the team but yet, things changes...anyway since there is nothing that i can do, i guess that i will just follow thru and see how things goes.

I guess after so many years, nothing could bother me much...

Just dont care! You wont die...

Friday, September 27, 2013

Friends

U dont need alot of friends, what you need is true friends that will stand by you at times when you need them. I still stand by this!

Monday, September 23, 2013

Guy's gathering at Relish Burger

My first gathering with the guys after im back from my long reservist....and Ed suggested to try out Relish Burger!

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The ambiance and place is really good...quiet, serene and away from crowds
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It was around 6pm when we were there on a sunday...
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I ordered their famous Char Siew Open burger and seriously its really good!
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Our group photo before they leave for Sri Lanka!
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This is taken while im away....
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Seriously, we guys should have more of this get together sessions! So much sharing and so fun!
Looking forward to the next one!

Friday, September 20, 2013

Work

Thru this period, i realised that im very fortunate to be in a team with the gals. We seems to be working well as a team, complimenting each other. As the peak is coming, there are just more things to take on! 

So once awhile, people do ask me why im staying despite all these saying that i wish to leave..my answer will always be, its not the right time. I guess im too inclined to leave my teammates!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

16 Days of Back to Basic

Finally its reaching the end of my 16 days Kanchanaburi Field trip.
This trip will definitely be a memorable one in my memories for my ICT.

Compared to the active days, its tougher to adapt to the change in environment..
Im glad that this trip not only provided me a chance to explore the other side of me, it also taught me more on the importance of teamwork and friendship.

In the wild, we are often not given a choice..but we can choose the kind of attitude to face it.
This goes the same in life...

I feel im much stronger after this ict and there are so much things that i would like to do!
2 more days and i will be back..meanwhile, let me enjoy the next 2 days!

Monday, September 2, 2013

Emotions

Emotions is definitely a very strong force that affects a person's behaviour....

Things will turn out abnormally wrong when you can't control your emotions well...
The worse thing to happen is that you let your emotions overtook your mind...be impulsive, uncool thinkings and this usually result in hurting yourself and others thru the process.
There is no excuse for letting loose of your emotions and definitely no excuses to throw them at someone just because you cant handle it...

But life is always a learning curve, when you think about it, you actually gained a precious experience...to learn to control your emotions.

Instead of dwelling in the past, always take this experience to learn and change. Change for the better!

Time to grow up and be more mature in handling your emotions!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Learning each day

The good thing about set back is that they make you grow....
The good thing about accepting fear is that they make you real
The good thing about getting back to your life is that they make you stronger
The good thing about the painful process to walk thru it is that they make you a better person

Never afraid to fall...just need to climb up and re live your life...never in misery....never waste your time!

Friday, July 26, 2013

My new pet

Its been a long while since Flowerhorn has been in the market but these days the breeding of these species are getting better and nicer! I couldnt resist and got myself a small copy

 Flowerhorn

 Flowerhorn

 Flowerhorn

 Flowerhorn

 Flowerhorn

 I couldnt resist this cute little fella and bought it as well...
 Flowerhorn

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Sincerity vs Practicality

I have never spend so much effort in preparing a birthday gift for anyone...nor ever been so enthu in celebrating someone's birthday. My Philosophy of being alone and being nice to myself has always made me the primary character for every decision i made.

But i guess, at a certain time of our life, we will feel like sharing. Feel like making someone else happy. Of course, that is also when you met the right person.

For once, i stop procrastinating and put thoughts into action. I was blessed to have a big group of supportive friends...probably every single one of them cant wait for me to abandon my single status :)
Where Esther, friends, even my army buddies etc all kept asking me for status updates....

While Jace felt blessed with my little thoughts, I too am blessed to find great support from friends and even family members. The amount of suggestions, effort and even counseling was unselfishly shared.

I was lucky as well, to be born with some creativity in me and as such, ideas were never an issue when it comes to surprises.

Well, but putting these into actions really require lots of effort...and this is also where i asked myself if sincerity would worth more than being practical in terms of gifts...well we wont know but definitely for me, sincerity! Some of the items like the card was bought when i was in Austria!

So with a little help and sponsor,

Credits:
Place for dinner - CC, Ed
Consultation - Fion P, SY
Crafts materials and guidance, XY...
The 3D arylic design - Shaw

The rest, I did it! So here's a little sneak of what is inside....as some of the items need to be fresh, so can only be added in later, is TWG Macarons (as bday cakes), Candle (i had to buy a piece of cake to get the candle), Baby Breath (Her fav flowers), Glow sticks (which i ran to daiso to get it, to light up the box when she open it) & a miniature version of the rose n baby breath that she will receive tomorrow.


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Hope that she will like this little surprise!
Happy Birthday Jace!

Sunday, July 7, 2013

BID @ CSHH

You know it might never happen if you keep procrastinating and probably in your life time, you might never even do something like this before. As much as im not willing to do it...i did it for another cause and im glad to be part of this team to make this happen.

People were having fun at the Board
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Creativity kicks in
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Thinking....
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Then everyone started coming forth to write
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Many thanks to my BFF....who came all the way down to support..a 10 mins appearance...
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David wanted more democracy
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Regardless of age...
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BID Project

Thoughtful
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In all, it was a great event and im glad it turned out well!

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Cakes Literally

A new cozy cake place in town...
Do check it out..
https://www.facebook.com/cakesliterally

Cakes literally

Cakes literally

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Puzzled June

So June has been an exciting month for me. Ever since I was back from my trip, i have been concentrating on just 2 things that has been bothering me for awhile.

My work..my career and fighting for what i deserved. So who should determine what i should deserve?
I guess at times, there are just too many things in life that cannot be predicted. Staying complacent doesnt get you anywhere. Well, i think at least, im clear with which direction i should be going..and I hope that nothing like this will happen again.

The 2nd thing on my mind, i guess pretty much is the same thing that you are thinking of....:)
I think we need a little more time! Life has been fun these days...the thoughts of sharing and anticipating has never hit me that hard..it wasnt really like what i had thought about in the past about staying single.

I guess the right person at the right timing makes a huge differences!

Wish me luck!

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Self Portraits

Since im posting most of the trip highlights in my camerani.blogspot.com

I thought i should post something different here...so shamelessly, my self portraits for this trip. I believed i have got enough to fill a 20 pages album.

So here are some that i like best!

At Alte Pinakothek Museum
My walk thru Munich City

My walk thru Munich City

On a metro to Tiergarden in Berlin
Tiergarden Berlin

At Tiergarden. Its drizzling
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Tiergarden Berlin

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

A Long Break

I took a very long break from work. 16 days in Europe plus a 5 days course at town. This is also the first time that i experience such a long getaway from office.

I saw a lot, I think a lot and a lot happened during this period. I'm glad that things are all turning out better these days.
I see that the globe is moving, people around you are changing, life isnt static. When you think why this and why that happened, it means that you will need to stop what you are doing and take a step out and see the things around you. Nothing is permanent, no one is going to wait and sympathise with you.

I'm lucky that i found my meaning in life now and i hope that you will too! A job is just a job! Get a life! Stop complaining and fight for the things you want!

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Orange Pudding

This is one really tasty orange pudding! I found it at Liang Court Meidya

Orange Pudding

N there is real fruits inside!
Orange Pudding

Orange Pudding

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Growing up...im a guy

So a lot of unhappiness things came back during this short month...thou probably most of which i have expected but the sudden impact from all, seems to weigh me down a little, emotionally and mentally.

Thankfully, i have friends, great friends whom unselfishly spend a little bit of time to advise me and guide me thru the events...

Well to think thru, its not a big thing, there's some up and down and probably by the end of your life, none of these would made any impact to your life...

So now, rather than thinking further, i think i should just look forward and move...:)

Comon Im a guy and i can do it!

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

So whats true

One min they tell you that you have got it, next minute they tell you that you didnt...and they re-emphasize that this has nothing to do with penalising you for not completing the KPI set aside for you. Reward you for stepping up, they give you a good bonus(which i wonder how good). Then they tell you again, that boss has good impression of you.
Finally they end with, sorry but too many people are putting up for promotion and im sorry you didnt get it...well thats fine...n fair..but next minute, you asked, so who got it?...and turned out its someone much younger than you with probably just 2 yrs experience here and sorry i didnt notice she has done that much as well...or anything more...

so with all these, the messages restructure again and this time, makes more sense...rephrase...
"well u really didnt complete your KPI, u indeed never finish what is required of you....but....make it a little nicer, we thought we should console you with a slightly better bonus...."
n in order for us to promote you, please complete your KPI...regardless who leaves and what others ask you to do...just complete it..if not i wont give it to u...

So now it makes a bit more sense then....so why should i cry foul over it....i should just go...and to hell with your system! i think u better remove my access rights, as i think im not as nice as i think i am....

Nonetheless, a short walk during lunch, i finally sorted out....its time! September/Oct it shall be!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Zoo on May Day

Its been almost 2 years since i last visited the Zoo, and there isnt much changes with the exception of a new Safari for the pandas which i didnt get the chance to visit this round.

Adventurous trip to Mandai Zoo

Camping for a shot

My Fellow Photographer...
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At your own risk!

Did you read about this White Tiger a few years back?
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A great place for kids
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One of the most interactive feeding session...
Lucky tortoise...such affections

This is really hilarious..we spotted it peeing....and they really pee like a fountain!
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This is probably the last shot. Sadly we didnt get to catch the Elephant show due to a sudden downpour. We were so wet that we had to leave the zoo subsequently...
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An umbrella or poncho will come in useful on trips like this..